Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
~ Proverbs 3:5,
This was my verse of the day. The perfect verse I needed to hear and read and soak in today.
Adoption is hard, life is hard, and trusting God when there is so much doubt and question is even harder, but I need to do it because his ways are always better than mine. Always.
With that said here are some things that came pouring out of me today. Things that make me want to doubt, and then the truths that make me want to continue to trust.
I will not doubt when the funds have not come in for the first half of this adoption that we have borrowed.
I will not doubt when others say aren’t two enough? Don’t you have enough on your plate already?
How are you going to care for more? I will not doubt.
How will you provide a future for more? I will not doubt.
How will you feed more? I will not doubt.
Don’t stretch yourself too thin. I will not doubt.
Should we have started this adoption considering our financial situation right now? I will not doubt.
I will not doubt with this incredibly long wait.
What I will do is…..
I will Trust this oh so strong desire the Lord has placed in our hearts for more children because it does not go away.
I will Trust that when the Lord gives us the vision he will provide the provision.
I will Trust in the Lord’s plan and not my plans.
I will Trust even when everything and everyone tells me not to.
I will Trust because that’s what my God wants me to do.
I will Trust because his heart is for the orphan and he wants nothing more for them to be loved and cared for.
I will Trust that even when things look bad he has this right where he wants it and he is there to see it through.
I will Trust even when it is hard.
I will Trust.
I will Trust.
I will Trust.
Carrie,
ReplyDeleteI read your blog, see your heart and feel that we are one in the same. God gave you a heart for an orphan and you know (and I know) but it does bear repeating that God works for the good of those that love him. Adoption is God's heart and you are heeding his command and while it doesn't always look like it, following his command is the right thing to do and you will be so blessed when this new little one comes home and all the ends match up.
XOXO
Stay strong sister. You know that life has thrown me many blessings. I may not have looked at them like blessings, but understanding that God has helped me through them to lead me to be a better person for him, others and myself was what God intended helped me so much. I have been praying for you guys and will continue to do so. Love you.
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